I swear I never intended to lose you as a friend. I know I was wrong with some things I said, but really i’m not ready to forgive you for the things you said and did. I love you, and I wish I could erase what was said but you hurt me. you really, really hurt me. I said you were trying to make me feel bad, but what I didn’t tell you is that you accomplished trying to make me feel bad. I did. Why this hurts so bad is because I constantly tell you NEVER LET ANYONE LET YOU FEEL SHITTY ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS. you can not change them. they’re your feelings. you can’t beat yourself up for them, because i’ve beaten myself up before for my feelings. I thought out of all people you wouldn’t make me feel like that. and you did. and i’m hurt. and i’m mad. i miss you, but after everything i don’t know if i should even care. I know there’s a chance you’ll see this. so maybe now you’ll see how i feel. I didn’t mean to go to that far with the things I said to you, but you don’t understand how big of a deal it was to me that you purpously trying to make me feel bad.. I could never imagine doing that to you. If you decided to stop being friends with one of your best friends, i’d back you up 100% because I trust your choices. I know we need to talk about this in person but according to you not replying to my text maybe we shouldnt. whatever. i’m sorry. i miss you. but i’m not exactly ready to forgive with my arms wide open.